Monday, April 7, 2008

Two years plus of marriage

So the story goes briefly like this:

I, who up until that point was not considering marriage anywhere in the future, was riding a train in France from Paris to Bordeaux reading a book that had thrice hitherto confused me. Hidden in the texts of Steppenwolf lay the key connector between the vision of a door and my viewpoint. Once the mystery vanished in my mind I was left to understand i. Nor more was I to be an I, but an i.

When the ego of I disappeared into i, i realized i had reached the end of myself and found a door. It stood outlined against the end of my mind, in testament to love.

i realized at that moment that i was incomplete. Beyond that door lay love.

Two years plus into our marriage i am stunned beyond measure at the complexities and intricacies of love.

To learn to accept your idiosyncrasies and carve off the rough edges is a wonderfully, at-times scary phenomenon. Love is nothing to balk at, love demands constant attention and respect; and within its release are wonders and delights well beyond oneness.

To speak your heart is to speak Love.

At the bottom of the whole smelly, warm, genetic bottom of it all, love's whisper continually sings out. The way to know love is to listen effectively and without judgment. In that way you give proper respect to the speaker.

Recognizing the projections of I upon another's statements helps bring misconceptions into the mind's view. Love softens the self making more receptive its senses. And receptivity is two-thumbs up good for relationships!

We have learned to speak our minds and to be heard. Both fairly equal in number.

Respecting, caring, releasing and loving are natural stages of our love in action. It is within these self polishers that growth is nurtured and love is cultivated.

Communication was the Key to letting my true self out from beyond selfish mirrors and into Love more fully and deeply than I had ever thought possible.


It is within the racing heartbeat and warm embraces, that i have found my Amalia lovelier than ever. We consider everyday better than the last because we strive to make it so.

We fight rarely and weakly now because the fierceness has gone out of the bite.

One of Love's greatest lessons learned thus far is humility in action. Within humility lies the strength to learn love's lessons and watch them blossom into more complete humans, more evolved souls.

To communicate effectively and with hearts and ears open to change, doors give way to brilliant moments of light and love. there is no doubt:

Amalia Jude takes my breath away.
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3 comments:

rebecca said...

Here here. It's 7:20 in the AM. Bleary eyed and slow, I am driven to read your posting and am touched by your findings and honesty.

Jeremy Wade Shockley said...

Beautiful!

Karen said...

I am smiling - in the glow that overflows from your blog. Yes, love is contagious. Thank you!