I Ching for day five

Li:Fire over Dui:Sea = Separation

The fire blazes upward and the water surges downward. This points to a divergence of views. Avoid uncoordinated actions originating from different wills.

There was much confusion in my mind surrounding this reading as I had specifically asked about my guilt. I was suspicious of my intentions and my guilt crippled me.

After twenty some odd hours filled with work, sex, live theater, public transportation and hot & sour Thai soup, this card begins to sink in. I have been crippled by my guilt and therefore am not free to let my spirit soar.

I must allow due separation between my spirit and my guilt. They are not the same.

I must avoid uncoordinated actions, which is to say I must continually strive for coordinated actions surfacing from the will of my spirit. The spirit of life may be filtered or abused but its intentions remain true.

I am seeking a guilt-free alignment of my actions and my spirit of life, in order that I may live more fully and more freely.

i will not say sorry

Although I personally did not choose my existence in this space and time, I will not bow to the cultural pressures indicating that I am inherently evil.

My existence came forth as a combination of choices not of my choosing and therefore I will not apologize for the life given to me.

From the time of my first decisions, I take full responsibility for the resulting actions. This is memory’s blessing not memory’s curse.

Those who would have you apologize for your existence have not fully understood the gift of life. The outward placing of blame is the immediate tendency of the ignorant mind’s lack of responsibility.

Make no mistake, in the scheme of survival there is no scape goat for lack of accountability. Evil is a lie concocted in an unbalanced mind. Unbalanced neural patterns are dangerous to survival and can be transmitted to other neural networks.

My cultural heritage may be permeated with actions of unbalanced minds but I am not condemned to repeat these choices. I claim my right to be free from such nonsensical behavior and endeavor to assert the highest forms of accountability upon my actions.

I will not apologize for my existence and you shouldn't either.

Victimhood stops by choice.



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